My TTC (Trying to Conceive) journey began the same year my husband and I got married in 2014. At the time, I was 27, and he was 37. We hadn’t dated for long before realizing we were soulmates – we just knew we were meant to be together. Initially, we hadn’t planned on having children, but the more we talked about it, the more our hearts began to change. We both share a deep love for children, and it felt so right to grow our family. My husband’s bond with my son was one of the things that solidified my belief in him as a wonderful father. He opened his heart and embraced my son as his own, later adopting him. Witnessing his care and love made me certain that he would be an incredible dad. After about a year of trying to conceive without success, I brought up my concerns with my primary doctor. She reassured me that it could take time, but by the second year, I knew deep down that something was wrong. In 2016, I was diagnosed with severe squamous dysplasia (CIN3) and squamous cell carcinoma in situ of the cervix. That journey is a story for another day, but with medical procedures and the healing hand of God, I overcame that challenge. Fast forward to March 2017: I finally saw the word “Pregnant” on a digital test! After countless negative tests, I was overjoyed and filled with hope. However, my excitement was short-lived. At my doctor’s appointment, I was told that my pregnancy test result was faint, and blood work would be needed to check my HCG levels and see if they were doubling. It was the longest, most nerve-wracking weekend, waiting for the doctor’s call. When the call came, it wasn’t the news I had prayed for. My heart shattered. After years of trying and waiting, I thought this was finally my answered prayer. I remember hearing the song *Hills and Valleys* by Tauren Wells on the radio during that time. I cried endlessly, consumed by heartbreak. The only way I made it through those dark weeks was with God’s help. It wasn’t until 2018 that I began advocating for myself and seeking more answers from doctors. Little did I know, my journey was far from over.
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